Daily meditation:
Dying of love or lovesickness…
There are many more moments lately where I feel my heart burning and fluttering as the echo of love feeling Her became so blatantly.
Is the sign that my life will have to endure crazy and blissful moments.
As good as it seems, these moments are not so easy to live with them. Without proper control of respiration and mind, it’s like being always high.
Being high on feelings of love is not quite the best thing without control. It changes you completely, living in a world where only you are dreaming. That dream that you hope one day become a reality… mostly don’t because it takes two to tango.
“Yesterday I was dreaming of Her with eyes wide open. Next to the sea sitting close to each other on the fine sand… her head resting on my shoulder. Felt her short hair touching my face cuddled by the wind. For one moment, our eyes crossed and looked deep into her eyes… So beautiful that moment. Nothing else besides our souls touching together through our eyes existed. Oh, sweet life, it was like I was painted inside with her image… My Ownself dissipating into Her existence. It was unreal that it felt so real…”
In that moment of infinite love, death was just another thing that it is a part of life… If I would have died at that moment, it was of pure happiness.
My heart is beating so hard even now. It’s like a humdrum, and right now, I still feel Her inside my heart. Her soul image is freshly painting all my existence through my mental vision.
“너무보고 싶어 그녀… (neomubogo sip-eo geunyeo…) – I miss Her so much.”
