From the Soul, for Souls

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Some time ago, a good friend asked me why I no longer wrote, because he wanted to read my thoughts again about the experience of love and other abstract ideas. He was himself a seeker within.

The truth is that this blog emerged from an existential disappointment connected precisely to what had been at the centre of my belief in love - the woman I loved.

My first love was tempestuous in the most literal sense. Unfortunately, I could not endure as Socrates did with his wife, despite all the magical moments, some of them unimaginable except through the divine nature of love. I must thank my former wife because, without her existence, the idea of infinite and absolute love would certainly never have appeared.

My second love was calm, at least outwardly, because within me it grew beyond every limit my mind could imagine. At times, I felt as though my brain might explode from an intensity it could no longer process. In this way, I became an empath and understood that some of what I felt was a reflection of what other people felt towards me.

I must thank her for the extraordinary experiences I lived through, because otherwise they would not have been possible. Perhaps I would never have fully understood the "sinners" who try to mend a suffering heart.

I then stopped writing because I could not imagine that, when you love completely, you can lose the person you love for nothing in the world. Yet that love must exist on both sides, otherwise there is no resonance. I also felt like a fraud for promoting infinite and absolute love between a man and a woman while living inside my own disappointment.

But the words I wrote during those moments of divine experience, and later published, continued to follow me. It really is so: love exists in our hearts and defines us, while the image outside us becomes the image of the love within.

We can extend this idea to religions. Jesus, Buddha, Osho and other religious figures or founders are existential images in the souls of those whose love gave birth to those religions or ideologies. The love within their souls melted into the image of their mentor, teacher or prophet. The people who made those religions possible did not need miracles or reciprocity in order to surrender completely to what they experienced within. The same thing still happens today.

Present-day religions would no longer exist if people, or groups of people, did not identify the love in their hearts with the image of that religion.

I will try to write more often because I frequently feel ideas and inner experiences, which I suppress beneath the existential rhetoric of the life I lead, asking me to give them birth in the world. Ultimately, this is not about my physical existence, but about the existence of absolute and infinite love.

At the same time, I must do everything possible for this book to be translated and published in other languages. The second book, written shortly after the published one, must also somehow see the light of print. I know I move slowly, but with talent. This matters especially because next year will mark exactly twenty years since the publication of Hearts of Love.

I will end by saying that God truly is Love. Until this idea is imprinted upon our existence, there will be no fulfilment in the world. I dare to say that religions need a new vision, one in which God is no longer a "deity" holding a whip, but the spark of love within each of us, free from prejudice and hypocrisy.

First published in Romanian on 2 July 2018. This English translation preserves the perspective of that period.

Original Romanian article: De la suflet pentru suflete.