Thoughts gone… Mind empty… Words without sound… Nothing is moving inside… Staying still as a stone… Just feelings… Untranslated to the mind…
My heart aches while missing Her. It’s like always something is missing and just wondering how did it happen?!
How could I fall in love again after so long?!
I lost my trust a long time ago in human love.
What’s so special that my heart is full of joy, just seeing news about Her on the screening of my soul?!
Or just taking a glimpse into a moment of Her existence, my eyes have a moisty looking.
Every day is praying for Her happiness with or without me in the picture. Her image became inside my heart, a precious icon shrouded by divine love.
All that is left are just feelings… So deep feelings are bouncing on the walls of my heart.
I am trying for so many hours to translate feelings into thoughts to put words on writing but to no avail.
Words are embedded in the silence of thoughts, and my heart doesn’t want more words nor thoughts for that matter.
Feelings for Her are just what the echo from my heart told me from the beginning: ‘Just Love Her’.
Maybe no more thoughts wanted at all because too many times, rational and logical thinking tried to overcome the heart’s hopes for a reality of its dreams.
Like Her… Missing Her… Loving Her… In the end, all mixed in and kicking hard to the bottom of my heart.
Her name (自然) meaning Nature…
Well since divine love revealed to my soul, heart and mind years ago, I’ve seen it in nature as the heart of the existence.
That adds up to why ‘Just Love Her’.
Because my heart chose Her to be the image of love inside, not my mind though, real love can’t be measured and for sure not thinking of it while or to living it.
Is there a destiny out there for both of us or only dreams left in this reality?!
I guess love works in mysterious ways, and time will do the bidding…