The Icon of My Soul

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My life does not exist without you. I can imagine existing only for as long as you exist. Otherwise, nothing within me would exist.

The air I breathe and the thoughts born from your existence are saturated with your fragrance. It is as though the time and space in which I live were created by and for your existence.

Before you, I was not conscious of my own existence. I simply lived while waiting to disappear. When you entered my life, a new dimension opened within me.

You are the "master" I had searched for across entire lifetimes. You are the soul that awakened my soul completely and melted it in the flames of love.

I slept through whole lifetimes before meeting you, and even afterwards, everything within me continued sleeping for a while. Then one day, looking into your eyes, I saw.

Your soul was the part missing from my existence. It was the nectar of the gods within our transient lives.

I do not know whether your soul, in turn, ever felt the truth of my experience for even one moment. Yet I hope the awakening of my soul created a shockwave capable of awakening yours. Perhaps it has already done so, since my soul carries your image as its representation.

Perhaps this is the only reason I still exist. Otherwise, I would have disappeared long ago.

If you disappear, my life will certainly stop at the same instant. This is not because my destiny is bound to yours, but because you are the "air" of my soul.

I know this because I still "breathe" your existence. When I close my eyes and withdraw within, I see your image come alive. My inner world is filled with you.

All my prayers and everything God represents within my existence contain your image. More than that, they are bound to your existence and your soul.

I feel it in every cell and every moment of my life, because you are the icon of my soul.

First published in Romanian on 5 August 2010. This English translation preserves the perspective of that period.

Original Romanian article: Icoana sufletului meu.