I asked the destiny so many times:
“Where is Her?!“
I’m looking in my destiny of present reality, and her soul image is nowhere to be seen…
Or is it only in my imagination?!
Or Her is only in my heart but not in my destiny?!
Or is not in my destiny yet?!
Or will be ever in this life around me at some point in time?!
Or it will be a chance to meet Her in this present reality?!
Too much “or” and possible “maybe” – too many probabilities.
No wonder that my Self and Destiny are not such good buddies in the present reality.
I breathe Her… That’s how I feel lately.
From morning to morning, either sleeping or being awake, I feel her presence inside my heart.
Unusual feeling Her inside my heart. And still, her soul image is so far away in my present reality literally speaking.
Soon I will be closer to her soul image in the present reality.
Will this be an opportunity for a present future to find Her in reality or it will be no change in the destiny of our soul images?!
I love when my heart is burning with her presence inside.
This feeling eases the suffering sparked by the distance in our destinies between our soul images.
Why a destiny where Her is only inside but too far outside physically speaking?!
I know that the next step of enlightenment is due to Her, but it’s so damn unbearable without her soul image closer.
Sometimes I ask my Self why to bother writing about my inner feelings?!
How this would help in the future other soul images in search of enlightenment?!
Or feeling Her is the only reason that I’m writing?!
I close my eyes and let my Self disappear in the presence of Her inside… And a wish rise inside my heart. That my destiny would have been to be born inside of her soul image. Living together close to her soul for aeons to come.